Through and through

There is a hole inside of me
From front to back
Like a bullet wound

Maybe I was standing on the street one time

Alone
Minding my own business

And

Maybe someone drove by
In a “drive-by”

And shot me

Loaded the chamber
Finger on the trigger
Aimed

And shot

Me

Through and through

The bullet ripped open my front
Tore my skin, burnt, seared it

Smashed its way through me
Damaging everything in its path
Everything inside me

Exit

The back of me

I can’t see the marks but I know they’re there
I feel the blood dripping out
Fast

So I have this hole in me now

And I can’t fill it

Nothing can

Eventually I will bleed out
This is a given
It doesn’t even need to be said

Even if you don’t know it

I do.

....

Emptiness
Convulsion
Uncontrollable
Spasmodic

Psychotic reactions

Innocuousness

Why bother

Move along pretty girl

Risk it all

Throw it all away

Become a star

Part of a constellation of many
You won’t be alone then

But you will die
Fade

Slowly

But surely

You will fade to black

Nothingless

Oblivion

Heaven.